Post by Jessie James Smith on Nov 7, 2010 23:18:47 GMT 10
Why am I like this?[/center][/size]
you know when most teenagers go through pubity they get hair down there, Me I gain 4 legs and a tail how fucked up is that.
Name: Jessie James Smith
Nickname: Jessie, JJ
Why was I chosen to be a protector?[/center][/size]
Taint: Usally shifter abilities & sometimes have visions of the future
I Can't keep a secret like this, forever. But how can't I?[/center][/size]
Home Town: La Push, Washington
Current Town / City: La, Push
Job: Highschool student
1.hanging out at the beach
2. listening Music
3. Being alone
4. The Rain
I' am not human, where am I supposed to go?[/center][/size]
Eye Colour: brown
Hair Colour: dirty blond
Hair Length: short
Coat Colour: blond
Height: 5' 8"
Style: nothing set
Appearance: Jessie is 5'8 feet tall and has tan skin and brown eyes, he has short black hair and wears mostly dark clothing he enjoys wearing black mostly and will often wear a black top and jeans. He does wear lighter colors, but doesn't like it much. He tends to wear whatever he finds.
Personality: Jessie is pretty much considered a non existent by his siblings he feels it's duty to look after his elderly parents.They don't really understand today's world or culture, so Jessie is always there for his parents both emotionally & financially. He is always comforting his mother who is often frantic about not having any of her children calling her or spending time with her he is basically the parents to them both, as they are never there for him emotionally. He doesn't have very good social skills often keeping to himself rather than going out like most teenagers. He is a shy guy that finds it difficult to express himself at times, he has the knack for being invisible no one really notices him, only if it's to make fun of him.
Jessie is a kind hearted guy that cares about other people even if their strangers he will always hear them out and offer solutions to their problems. Jessie can be very insightful too. He thinks about things in-depth before responding to things. Jessie also lives a lot in his own head, he often imagines what it would be like to have parents who aren't homophobic or what it's like to have friends. Jessie is often emotionally constipated, he finds it difficult to process his emotions so there will be days when he is perfectly fine and happy and other days where he feels like he wants to die, he has major self loathing issues and hates himself more than any bully could hate him, he is always putting himself down and believes himself to be worthless, he has very low self- esteem. Jessie considers himself a broken human being, he is constantly trying to improve that in himself to try to be stronger and more confident, but finds that incredibly difficult. He is often changing, there are days he can be selfless and then there are days when he is self centered that he will only care about what he is going through. Jessie also has very little patience meaning he will become annoyed constantly if people ask him about the same thing over and over. He also has a short fuse making him lose his temper often. Jessie's rage makes it very difficult for him to put issues behind, he will hold on to grudges and issues even if it's been settled. When he is hurt emotionally he will lash out to share the pain too.
Jessie is also very secretive about many things like his homosexuality. He hates talking about himself to people and will often lie when asked how he is. Jessie is emotionally affected by almost anything whether it be music or the weather around him. He can also be very perverted at times often having inappropriate thoughts about guys one of them being Sam Uley, someone he crushes over & fears. One of the things Jessie has difficulty with is his loneliness he is always alone and feels rejected and that he is not good enough for anyone. What he really finds confusing is most of the time he hates being alone with no one to talk to and no one to call friend, but sometimes he loves being alone and loves the quiet it brings him. Jessie is also paranoid to an extent, he constantly feels people are talking about him & that people hate him. Jessie is often a walking contradiction his personality shifts all the time, you never know what you get when you come across Jessie
being at the beach
Dreams: Jessie dreams of finding a place where he belongs to have a family who loves him for him
How am I susposed to see the ones I love now, without showing them what I am?[/center][/size]
Nature: good hearted
Past: Jessie was born in La push on September 5th, he lived a normal life in La Push he grew up with his mother & father he has four older brothers and one sister. He is the youngest in his family Jessie grew up all alone as his siblings were all adults and moved on with their life. Jessie never did fit in at school, he was too shy to play with the other kids and totally different he was gentle and was not the type to play rough. The boys didn't like him and considered him a weirdo & the girls thought he had boy germs. So this left Jessie all alone, Jessie spent his time hiding out of sight to avoid his peers, he would eat alone behind one of the school buildings and after lunch he would just live in his own head.
He did not have his siblings around because they were all gone and none of them anywhere near La push. The way Jessie's life flowed went well into Highschool where the teasing evolved into calling him gay and other names, The irony was Jessie was gay, he was the last one to realize this well almost last one his family has no idea. Jessie continued to be the lone wolf to say the least. One thing Jessie liked to do was follow the older boys around, he would always follow Jacob black & his friends when they were in town or at the beach. He of course kept his distance and kept out of sight from the boys not wanting to intrude or get his ass kicked since they all looked so muscular.
Jessie would also watch Sam Uley whom he had a crush on, Jessie always wondered what sam & jacob and their friends were doing and how they always disappeared as soon as they entered the forest. Eventually Jessie picked up on how they all hung out together and sometimes kids would go missing and eventually a week later become best friends with them, Jessie believed sam was the leader of a cult and decided to keep his distance, not knowing sam had his eyes on jessie.
Joseph smith (Father/Alive/Store owner)
Anngie smith (Mother/Alive/house wife)
Joseph smith (Eldest brother/Alive/Security guard)
Anne Palmer (Big sister/Alive/ Cheff)
Shane smith ( Big brother/Alive/ Self employed, Small business)
Dan smith (Big brother Alive/ Car wash Managment)
Mick smith (Big brother/Alive/ Pannel beater)
Life is hard and unfair. But was it ever said that it was supposed to be easy?[/size][/center]
A b o u t Y o u[/b][/i][/size]
Name: i go by jessie
Character(s) so far: no other
Twilight Team: team emmett
Website: private at the moment
How Did You Hear About Us:affilate surfing