Love At First Sight [ Nessie ]

[Jacob Black]

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[atrb=background, i739.photobucket.com/albums/xx32/ImYoursTaylor/jacobblackmiddle.jpg] For once the rain had stopped and it was a cloud free night with a bright full moon. The only sound you could hear in La Push was the sound of the ocean hitting the rocks and cliffs. Jacob was alone, standing on the beach with the light of the moon shining on his bronze tan skin. His hand rised to the light and a smile lighted his face, feeling the rays on moonlight touching his skin. Jacob loved nothing more than a clear and brightly lit sky of the night. Taking a deep breath, he looked up at the moon and howled. He could see why wolves loved so much to howl at a full moon...

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Nessie closed her eyes as she walked down the beach at night her feet in the water as she hummed quietly. She was enjoying the moon as it hit her skin. She had wanted to see Jake but thought that he had to be out with the pack so she had hit the beach instead. She was soaked having been swimming for awhile as she had her bag over her shoulder as she hummed and walked happily as she looked around. Then she saw him and smiled the smell of a wolf was lost in the smell of the salt as she moved closer to say hello. The good thing was that she had a skin that didn’t seem to be bothered by the light she would glow but not as notice to much. She sighed and moved closer and then her eyes saw him a smile coming to her face “Jake” she said and blushed hard her hand running over chest to where her heart was beating as she moved quickly and threw her bag onto the sand a good distance from the water and tackled him into the water as she wrapped her arms around him and hugged him before she laughed and pushed away coming up for air and looked around.

She had always known Jacob since she had been born and she was attached to him as she brushed her hair from her brown eyes. Even though she looked like a teen she had a good heart that most of the time still had a child in it at times. She was not afraid to have some fun with things. She gave him some room swimming away “howling at the moon really?” she asked and giggled at him. It was kind of cute she thought and moved forward into his arms and hugged him gently kissing his cheek “no pack things?” she whispered quietly to him as she slowly settled into his arms and closed her eyes “I missed you” she mused quietly to him as she closed her eyes and moved away from him. His smell didn’t bother her as she loved his scent it was sweet like him and that was all she needed as she swam along the surface. She wished that she could go under the water forever like her parents could at times instead of having to come up every once in awhile to breath due to her set of working organs that had come with her body.

She knew how he did feel about vampires and it bothered her slightly “you should come and see mom next week she misses you” she said and poked him in the chest playfully. She paused as she looked down “Jake you have known them ten years they have never done anything to deserve your hate” she said gently. Her hand reached up and touched his cheek and sighed. They had always been the good vampires having never fed on humans while they had been in forks “please its time to settle these issues with my family and the wolves the trust thing should be there after everything that has happened you know they would help the pack if you needed it as you would help them put aside your hard heads and make peace…we have enough to worry about with this crap then people we have known for many years that are in the same crap that we are in” she whispered. It was easy to see how much it did mean to her that peace would soon be settled between the pack and her family “hell I had to beg you to allow my mother to drive me here Jake when I was little that’s pretty damn sad” she said and frowned at the memory of having to beg Jake to allow her mother who was his best friend to take her to La Push it was ridicules.

[Jacob Black]

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[atrb=background, i739.photobucket.com/albums/xx32/ImYoursTaylor/jacobblackmiddle.jpg] Hearing the slightest sound not far from him, Jacob stopped howling and another smile came to his face with the knowledge of who it was not so far from him. He was so happy that Renesmee had came. He had missed her so. Before he knew it, she was right beside him, almost soundlessly she had moved. Speaking his name, she run her hand of his chest. " Ness," he smiled, looking up from her light skinned hand on his dark skinned chest. Throwing her bag to the side of the beach and wrapping her arms around him, she pushed him into the water playfully. She hugged him under water, laughed and pulled away to go back up for air, but Jacob still had hold of her wrist as he kissed her lightly and then joined her at the surface of the water. Jacob smiled to himself with the actions he had just took, that had came so naturally to him, without even thinking. She swam away from him, and soon as he seen her move away, he wished so much that she hadn't. He wanted her close to him as he could. He didn't like it when Renesmee was too far from him or his sight. “howling at the moon really?”

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Renesmee asked with a giggle. Jacob turned a little red in the face, knowing that she had heard him. He didn't do it offern at all.
" I'm a wolf, after all " he murmured with humour, swimming over to her side and wrapping his arms around her.
Asking about the pack, Jacob's heart half slowed at the thoughts of what was going on. He looked down and away from her, trying to hide with frustration he had with them. " Not exactly," he answered her, looking back up to her and pulling a stand of hair away from her face.

He kept her close to him as they swam, he could feel her slowly relaxing in his arms. He kissed her cheek as she told him that she had missed him. It was the last thing he wanted to hear. He didn't like making Ness feel sad or to be missing anyone. Things had just gotten so hectic it was hard for him to see her as much as he would like to.
" Miss you more," he murmured in her ear. He leant his face against her's for a second, like a wolf would saying hello to it's mate.
He loved her scent of sweet strawberries.

Resting his forward on her's, he looked her closely in the eyes, with another smile lighting his face, but then she pulled away and began to swim again.
He followed her.

“you should come and see mom next week she misses you”

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she suggested.
Jacob was more than happy to hear that Bella was missing him like he was missing her, he had just been too busy to be able to go and see anyone really. " I would love to," he smiled. "I've only not been around Ness, because I've been so busy. It's nothing to do with you, you're dad or mum."
Before Jacob could say anything more, Renesmee started talking about how Jacob hated them.
He didn't hate them at all. He didn't like the idea of what they were, but he didn't hate them for what they were, he loved them like a family, like his own family. He would never hate them.

" Ness calm down. I don't hate you're family at all. I just can't be around like I used to be. And I only didn't want you or you're mum coming on our lands when you were little because it was too dangerous at that time. There were a coven of vampires living not too far from here. Do you know what I would do if anything happened to you're mum or you..." Jacob pausing, swimming away. Just the thought of losing Bella or Renesmee was too hurtful for him. He didn't want to think it anymore.

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His lips touched hers and she felt a small shudder of pleasure course through her young body as she pressed her body against his and sighed happily. As they got to the surface she closed her eyes and stared at the stars her brown eyes soft. She was enjoying the time with him and she hoped that it would not end soon. She closed her eyes and traced her fingers down his chest “maybe we should go there are other places that they would not find us” she said quietly. The Amazon coven was still safe from when she had last talked with Zafrina a few months before. The two had stayed close friends over the years and she had even having learned to fight with them to the point where she could handle Jasper. She had gone through a few coven’s as she picked everything that she could up and had become quite a fighter adapt with different weapons that were required. She brushed her hair from her eyes and leaned forward “Jake” she whispered his name with such feelings that another shudder ran throughout her body as she smiled lightly.

She closed her eyes and sighed “I don’t know how long I can keep sharing my Jake” she said a cute pout on her lips even though she did understand he did what was needed to keep everyone safe. She closed her eyes and leaned into his arms and rested her head near his as she inhaled his scent and listened when he spoke and nodded about her mother she was glad the two were close though that one was quickly gone when he said that he didn’t hate them “really?” she asked quietly. She hoped that he meant what he was saying that he didn’t care although it did make her nervous to have asked the question. She almost always believed him and what he had said to her even if when she had been young and he would say things to make her feel better with things. Leaning forward she kissed him her lips held his “Jake you mean the world to me you know that?” she asked as she smiled closing her brown eyes as she touched his cheek and ran her hand along his chest slowly “I…Jake” she said quietly and bit her lip “we should get a place together soon so were not apart so long” she said gently. She knew that she could stay with Billy as the two had become close after a few weeks of being around each other back then she had been to adorable to not love and it had worked.

The fact was that their were times when she wished that she could stay with him all of the time. Resting her hands inside of her pockets she kicked staying at the surface and against his warm body as she smiled lightly. Time would tell if they would always be together “a simple two room home there are some in the area that we could look at” she explained knowing that this could go either way. If she had her way the second room would be a guest room and the main one would be theirs and they would be able to deal with things she hoped that he would be okay with this and she bit her lip as she touched his hands in hers and held them slowly in her own. It was comforting to be so close to him she paused “I just don’t want to be without you so many days it sucks” she admitted as she shook she shook her head. She had seen what Emily went through at first and knew that it was not easy on her yet she wanted to be with him as long as she was alive. They would have forever if they were lucky enough which would be the best part. Reaching out her hand touched his cheek and kissed him “please? What do you think?” she asked softly her voice kind and soft as she gave him a small smile and brushed a bright crimson color.

She had known him all of her life ever since she had been born and she was grateful for it “you are amazing” she whispered to him as she pressed her head against his chest and inhaled his scent. As she closed her eyes “I want to be with you forever no matter what happens I am lucky to have you…I don’t want anyone else” she said quietly and burried her head against his chest as her arms held him tightly. Things were getting nasty though around them and she didn’t know if forever would be very long “I love you” she whispered quietly to him with so much love in her voice as she closed her eyes. She wished that everything would be like it was years ago where she would see him almost every day and that she could be on his lap biting his neck playfully something her father stopped after so many years. Without realizing it she sent the image of her biting his neck and blushed drawing her hands away her face a bright crimson.

[Jacob Black]

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[atrb=background, i739.photobucket.com/albums/xx32/ImYoursTaylor/jacobblackmiddle.jpg] " Nice thought," he murmured, his hand ranning over her back with water dipping from his hand to keep her warm. He held her tightly against him, feeling the flow of the water run between them both. The air was calm and everything around them both was peaceful and quiet. The only sound Jacob could hear was the soft crashes of the waves and the water around them. It was peace and calm that Jacob hadn't had in years and needed so much and it only seemed to be, that he got it whenever he was around Renesmee. He loved nothing more than to just be around her, spending time together. She sighed and caught Jacob's attention with how she didn't know how much longer she could share him for. "I am you're's Ness. The only part of me that you share is time," he smiled, running his warm hand down the side of her face slowly and softly. He meant what he said and hoped that she knew it. Time seemed to be ticking slowly. It didn't matter to Jacob if it was eight o'clock at night or just about dawn. He didn't care as long as he was spending time with her, he didn't care if they stayed in the water for days on end. He just wanted to be with her and never away for a second. " Really," he answered her, when she questioned him on wither or not he meant what he had said about her family. " I only hate those who hurt others Ness." She leant closer to him and kissed him softly and lightly, holding her lips against his. He pulled the tiniest bit away so he could brush his lips over hers. He could feel his heart beating the tinyest bit faster as he kissed her and hear that both their heartbeats matched in pace. Hearing her saying how much he meant to her, meant a whole to Jacob. He knew how much she meant to him too. " I do," he smiled again. " And you mean the galaxy to me," he chuckled lightly, his hand running down the length of her arm as she touched his chest with the same pace as he was stroking her arm. He listened to what she had to say about getting their own place. It was a very nice idea that she had, but he knew that no time soon would Bella or Edward approve of it. " Even if we did have our own place now, we would only be seeing each other as much as we do now..." he sighed. " When I'm not on patrol, I'm usually asleep." Takening his hands into her own, Jacob thought how cute it was that she was biting down on her lip and most likely didn't even know it. His thumbs touched the tops of her fingers and ran up and down each of her fingers slowly and softly as he looked down to her pale, delicate and sweet hands in his. He knew how lucky he was to have her, he knew what she was more than anything he ever deserved. There was no words for what she meant to him... He nodded, thinking for a second at her question. " if you can convinse you're mum and dad, then... okay." he looked up to her with a smile, seeing that she had flushed bright red. Feeling her lean into his chest, his arms wrapped around her tightly in a warm embrace. He felt like he would never let her go nor did he ever want to. " You will always have me forever Ness. Nothing will never break us up, I mean it. " He kissed the top of her head and tightened his told a tiny bit more. A bright smile came to Jacob's face when he heard her say that she loved him and with how she said it, he knew that she meant it with all her heart. He hadn't ever heard it before from her. He always thought that she loved him, but never until now did he truly know it. " I love you too " he whispered softly in her ear, pulling her closer his body. He rested his head on her shoulder and then felt her teeth gaze the side of his neck. He shuddered at the unexpected feel of her teeth and then the feel of a bit, piercing his skin. It didn't hurt at all, if anything it was the opposite of pain, it was pleasure. He looked at her with a smug and crooked smile. " Now how on earth I am I going to explain this to the others?" he questioned her, with all humour showing in his tone. Slowly he leant closer to her, slowly and softly kissing her, running the tip of his tongue over her lips, before pulling away like the tease he was. He looked away, trying not to smile or look at her. He was such a tease!

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Nessie closed her eyes and rested her hand against his chest as she looked at him and shook her head “they wont allow it I want to run away with you Jake” she said quietly “away from forks…away from wolf and hybrid to be normal” she whispered to him. She closed her eyes and sighed she knew that chances were that he would say no but she wanted it to be out of this mess. He could stop being a shifter and she passed as a human quite well as she had stopped aging about three years before she would be like this forever as long as she would live “Jake you never asked for this we could do so much” she said quietly. It would kill her to leave her parents true but they could also be more safe somewhere else. Closing her eyes she rested her head against his chest and stared at his shirt as she sighed quietly “to many people are coming here we are going to be found sooner or later Jake this place is not safe anymore” she whispered quietly “hell the Volturi are safer right now then anyone” they had a castle what did they have nothing really besides numbers and that was not guaranteed.

As he kissed her and teased her a small frown came to her face as she firmly grabbed him by the back of the neck and pulled him towards her and kissed him with a passion that would shock many people. As their lips touched she pushed her tounge into his mouth as her hand went to his chest and ran along his chest as she kissed him long and hard gripping his shirt she pulled and ripped it off his body as she slowly pushed them towards the beach and onto solid ground as her hands roamed along his now bare chest. Finally she broke the kiss and then kissed his neck as she tasted his blood she let out a small moan before catching herself and spitting it out on the ground “sorry” she had not meant to break the skin though she did giggle when he asked how he would explain it to the guys “just say your like hybrid bites to go with the kisses” she whispered and then kissed him again this time showing no restraint as she kissed him passionately as her hand ran along his body and grabbed his ass and squeezed as she smiled playfully at him. She had wanted to do this for so long she thought as she rested her head against his bare chest “I love you” she whispered softly.

The feelings that she was feeling at the moment were driving her crazy to the point where she wanted to rip his cloths off and devore him as she placed slow kisses along his chest and slowly started to work on other things as she kissed him “I want you” she whispered to him barely able to be heard. Her hand pressed against his leg as she slowly rubbed his leg “my Jake” she whispered. It was a term of endearment that she had used when she was young that and stating her position as his mate “its okay” she assured him with a smile in case he was nervous. Their bodies were still hot so the cool weather was not to bad. Kissing his neck she bit gently this time making sure that she did not break his skin “I am yours forever no matter what happens…where we go or how long you are gone I will always be here when you come home I promise” she whispered as she rested her head against him slowly and took a breath inhaling his scent.

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[atrb=background, i739.photobucket.com/albums/xx32/ImYoursTaylor/jacobblackmiddle.jpg] He sighed at the new thoughts that both of them had. He wanted nothing more than to get away from Forks, but so much was holding him back from going. Jacob couldn't just get up, go and forget his pack, his friends and family... and he knew that not in a million years would they go too because they also had friends and family in the area. " I know how danergours it is staying around here Ness, but where else is there to go that the sun wouldn't be around? And theres hunters everywhere, no matter where we go. No where is going to be safe. " He liked her idea, but there was too much going on to move, to leave. He sighed silently with fustration. He knew thought licking her lips like he did, would get him into trouble, after he did it. Jacob wasn't one to think before he acted, specially around Renesmee. She pulled him to her swiftly and urgentcey. He didn't mind how she kissed him, but he did know that neither her father and her mother would approve of it. He would have to try his hardest not to think about it while around them, or they both would be dead. Her kiss was so hard and long, that Jacob fell over backwards into the water, but it didn't break his focus on her. She ripped his shirt so that it only hung from his arms, with his bright russet tanned skin shone in the light of the moon where he was wet. He looked up at her with disaproving eyes, but a smug and crooked smile on his face, while leaning back on his elbows. Kissing his neck, making Jacob sigh at the feeling of her teeth so close to his skin. He liked the feeling of giving her his blood, instead of some animal. It was the type of thing he should have been able to think of doing himself. When she lent back, again he looked at her a little surprised. He wished that she hadn't stopped, but he wasn't left for long. She kissed him passionately again, with her hand running along his body. She smiled down on him playfully, murmuring "I love you " to him. He mouthed it back to her, kissing her again, but then he was shocked with what she said next. She 'wanted' him. He moved back away from her as her word sank in and she touched his leg. It was starting to get hard for him to thinking. He shook his head, trying to think clearly. " We can't Ness," he murmured. " Not now... not while we still live here. You'll get into too much trouble if you're father finds out." Jacob stuttered a little while he explained. He didn't want to let her down, but he knew that he had to. The last thing he wanted was to get her into trouble like that.

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Nessie closed her eyes as she rubbed his chest that was when she heard the words that made her heart sink as he said no to her. Opening her eyes she swallowed “no?” she whispered feeling hurt. She had thought that he had wanted her and now he seemed to not want her whatsoever. Standing up she paused “I should go…thanks Jake” she said quietly and brushed her hair over her eyes. She hated this she had hoped that it would always be better then this and yet things were falling apart around them or it seemed to be each time that she looked around her it hurt even though she rarely admitted to it. Walking over to her bag she slowly picked it up and got out a towel and dried herself off even though she realized that she was in tears she sobbed quietly and stared at the moon as she started back to her car that was a few miles north “Bye Jake…ill see you soon” she muttered to him. She was trying to hide the sadness in her voice but failing each time that she spoke to him. Turning away she started to walk towards her home.

She didn’t know what she would do when she got home a part of her just wanted to run away from this place. Maybe she would go stay with the Amazon coven and she would stay there she thought. For the most part she was just embarrassed she had given him everything and shown him her heart and soul to be turned away. Shaking her head she sighed making a note that she should go get a snack on the way home maybe a deer if she could find one. She was not expected home for a few hours having said that she was going out for most of the night but she would end it early if she could get home without many questions hopefully. Sobbing hard she stared at the sand as she walked just wanting to crawl under a rock and die right now. What had she done to make him not want her she thought maybe it was her being half vampire it made him sick that she was half of something that he could never stand. Or maybe even he had a crush on her mother still which she had just recently learned of from their past. Neither really made her happy about the idea and she swallowed sadly and started to run away from Jacob so he wouldn’t see her tears of pain and sadness.

[Jacob Black]

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[atrb=background, i739.photobucket.com/albums/xx32/ImYoursTaylor/jacobblackmiddle.jpg] Jacob could feel that Renesmee was getting upset. It was the last thing he wanted her to be was upset. He didn't mean to have upset her, he was looking out for her. " Ness please just think of the consequences of what would happen if they found out. They wouldn't trust you around me anymore, and they wouldn't trust me either. Please understand," he murmured, hoping that she would. But she didn't... She thought that she should go and that to Jacob meant that she was hurt. " Renesmee, please don't," he shouted as she walked to the beach, but she ignored him and kept walking. He didn't want to leave things like they were. He hated upsetting her, let alone hurt her like he had, Jacob was only looking for her, trying to do what was best for her. He watched her disappear into the La Push forest and when he seen that she was gone, his heart sank, he felt like he had lost her for good. He felt so stupid for how he had explained it to her, he should have said more in more detale than he had. He could have stopped her from getting hurt all together if he had explained better! He growled at himself, hitting the surface of the water with his palm. His body was hot with radge coursing through him. If he had lost her forever, he would kill himself if Edward didn't before hand for getting he so upset. He couldn't live without her! Swimming for shore, he pulled his wet and ripped T-shirt off and left it at the beach, trying to find her. He wasn't going to give up, he couldn't and wouldn't! Following her scent, he seen her almost at her car. Using his gift he froze the mussles in her feet so that she couldn't walk away. " Stop right there Renesmee Cullen," he ordered her with his Alpha tone as he froze her. He walked up to her slowly, touching the side of her face with the palm of his hand. " You didn't give me a chance to explain. I said no for now, not forever. I'm only trying to look out for you, nothing more. I don't think you know how many people would find out if we did it now. I want our first time to be something that only you and me have together, without anyone else knowing. It wouldn't be like that now," he murmured, looking deep into her eyes, before l leaning down and kissing her lightly. " Never, could I live without you. I would rather die first."

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Ness froze as her legs suddenly seemed to not want to work and cursed “Jacob Black let me go now” she snarled at him. Very rarely did show such anger at him. The fact was that she was hurting badly right now and tears were streaming down her face as she stared at him “when Jake? I asked you to run away with me for a reason how long will I have to wait before I can give you myself in every way besides my heart?” she asked coldly. As he came up her and touched her he seemed to forget that he had only frozen her legs her hand shot out and hit him at full force. The shock wave sent pain into her hand and she cursed and rubbed it slowly as she glared at him “let me go Jake I am not kidding” she snapped at him. She hoped that she would be able to drive home now as her hand seemed to be sprained or broken although she could not tell she would have to ask Carlisle when she got home to look over it. Her brown eyes were angry as they stared at him “touch me again and I will hit you harder” she said coldly. She dropped her hand and cringed slightly but ignored it and got ready in case she needed to hit the wolf again.

The fact was that she was worried about becoming like Emily although she adored the woman and even Sam now after getting to know them. She paused “its going to be the same no matter where we go Jake my family will be there so will wolves chances are we wont even have the chance if you worry about it now I don’t want to be Emily waiting half of my life to have a child Jake” she said quietly “I cant be like that I am sorry that you may not want me but I cant just…” she said and looked down as she closed her eyes and let the tears fall from her face freely with things. She was frustrated over things and it didn’t seem that they would be going away anytime soon “you don’t understand the wolf life seems to always come first no matter what happens it sucks Jake you used to come by every day and be with me now I am lucky to see you twice a week unless you are sleeping and half the time your ready to collapse how can anyone keep up with it?” she asked quietly as she hung her head.

She hoped that he would not hate her right now as they were soul mates but sometimes she wondered on things. Biting her lip a habit that she had gotten from her mother. She closed her eyes and felt sick “I get that wolves are a part of your life Jake but its not fair that it dominates you” she said quietly “it hurts Jake each and every time I don’t see you have you ever asked Emily what happened when she was away from Sam to long its not a pleasant feeling at all” she shuddered. It became painful to be away more then a few days and she would have to find a way to visit him to keep herself sane. Lately with everything that had been going on though she was more and more worried about losing him in the end because he was to hard headed to realize it would end up killing him or at least one of them if it kept up. She had been playing human herself as hybrids were harder to pick out then vampires and mixed in well with either species that walked the earth.

[Jacob Black]

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[atrb=background, i739.photobucket.com/albums/xx32/ImYoursTaylor/jacobblackmiddle.jpg] He smiled smugly as she growled at him. It was too cute for him to stop a smile from coming to his face. Sure he knew that it was the last thing he should have been smiling at, but he couldn't help it. " Do you not realize, the day that I let you go, is the day that I'll die?" he murmured into her ear, trying to kiss her, but she punched him hard, hurting her hand and not even marking him. She should have known. He wanted to check her hand, but she wouldn't let him with the threat of hitting him again. He wasn't scared that she would hurt him, more that she would hurt herself more than she already had. He sighed half defeated. " Ness you're only ten. If you were human, you would be still playing with dolls and playing dress up. You wouldn't be thinking of these things... You haven't even gone to school yet. We both have forever to make those kind of things happen... " He was frustrated that she couldn't see what he was seeing would happen. " I wouldn't let us become like Sam and Emily. Never would that happen." His heart was racing hard as he thought of what was happening right before him. He hated seeing her hurt, both physically and mentally, because of him. He understood everything that she was saying, he just didn't know how to say how wrong she was. "I'm not worried if you hit me Ness. I'm more worried that you will hurt yourself more." He unfroze her feet, seeing that it wasn't helping either of them anymore. " You can't go home now anyway..." he stated. " What do you think you're father will say when he hears why you're so upset? He'll just make me promise him... until you're a curtain age and I don't want it to be like that." He looked down and away from her, wishing and praying that this wasn't happening, that it was just a dream, a nightmare that felt all too real. He was hating himself for what he had done to her. He should have been around her more, if he had been she may not have wanted a piece of him so much. That was the last thing that he wanted, for her to be feeling like she was. His mussels were tensing with the pain that he was feeling coming from her. He had hurt her and hurt himself at the same time. His eyes flashed to her when he heard her say that he didn't want her , he couldn't believe that she had just said that. Looking at her with narrow eyes, he shook his head and seen tears running down her face. That was as far from the truth as he had ever heard! He wanted her more than anything. How could she say that and mean it? When he heard her say it, it was like a knife going through his heart. Leaning down to her, he licked the tears from around her eyes and held both her wrists in each of his hands carefully, so he wouldn't hurt her most likely broken hand. " Do you not understand the term of imprint Renesmee?" he murmured. " I want you all the time, you have no idea how much it does actually hurt me to be away from you. It's actual physical pain Ness. I don't want to be away from you for a second... I don't need to ask Emily, Ness... I feel it all the time," he kissed the side of her face softly and touched her chin, making her look up to him. " You're the only one I want to see when I wake in the morning. The only one I want to see when I'm hurt and the only one I want for the rest of my life," he smiled, meaning every word of it. He wouldn't ever leave her side, ever! " I don't want you to be scared of anything. I can stop you're fears, I just can't stop mine." he murmured, looking away shyly. " The pack is the only thing I know truly Renesmee. I don't know a life without them or without been half animal. I don't know what would happen if I stopped it suddenly. It's who I am and meant to be..."

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Nessie closed her eyes as she tried her hardest to stay mad at him. He had hurt her and she was looking depressed as she felt her legs become free she stretched it out “no matter where we go Jake my family will always be there so will my father who will know right away” she said and rolled her eyes. He would know why she was on cloud nine even without the mind reading power as sex smelled quite different “hell Jacob I can smell when mine have sex its disgusting but even though they may not know it without my dads power chances are they would smell it all over me” she said and rolled her eyes. She looked disgusted at the thought when she could smell the sex coming off of her family just after they had intercourse “if I can smell it they sure as hell can” she muttered quietly and sighed. When he brought up dolls she shoved him “in case you didn’t realize mutt I am a bit more advanced then any ten year old” she rolled her eyes at the thought her doll phase had been about six years ago when she had been four and looked about eight “so please don’t play the damn age factor into something where you have no clue on mutt” she snapped at him. She was using the term mutt to annoy him now as she knew how it could irk him when her aunt called him that quite often. Rolling her eyes she smirked “that’s like saying you should be acting like a teen instead of the twenty plus years you have been alive” she said calmly. It was the opposite of what she was but it proved her point.

Biting her lip she closed her eyes and took a breath as she looked down “I just don’t know what to do Jake” she said quietly. Sam and Emily were always kind to her and she loved them but still. She closed her eyes and shook her head “you want to wake up next to me yet you wont even let me stay with you as I should be” she kicked a rock and sighed “its not fair Jake the wolves have you I get that but its not easy not seeing you so much anymore…I miss you god I would do anything to be with you all the time maybe I can start doing patrols with you or some of the wolves” it would make her feel somewhat better. She was able to keep up when she needed to though her endurance was not the best she could keep a decent pace for awhile while out and about before she would need to rest. Pausing she hugged him after a second her arms wrapped around his waist and held her closely “don’t leave me” she said quietly her voice soft but sad. She didn’t know what she would do if she ever did lose him as he was her world and so much more when it came down to it. She was ready to take a few risks even if it was dangerous she would make due.

Closing her eyes she rested she relaxed slowly and rubbed her hand “I need to go see my grandfather anyway” she pointed out to him. Her hand was throbbing though she could already feel the healing kicking in it would just take time and she wanted to be sure that it healed all the way in the end. Closing her eyes she leaned against her car carefully and sighed “god I swear hitting you is like hitting a brick wall” she muttered more annoyed that she didn’t leave a dent on him like she had wanted. A smile came to her face “maybe dad will help me a bit” she muttered.

[Jacob Black]

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[atrb=background, i739.photobucket.com/albums/xx32/ImYoursTaylor/jacobblackmiddle.jpg] He nodded to her with half closed eyes. He understood that well, and he also knew that the pack would most likely be the same, no matter whom they were leaving behind, though Jacob could never ask them to follow him. He sighed silently, wishing she hadn't brought up her parents. She wasn't the only one that knew when they had done 'something'. "And the pack?" he asked, looking deep into her eyes. " You know Ness, soon as I think about you, they don't only hear my thoughts but see them too?" He thought that it would be embarrassing for him if he was caught thinking about her, but he was more worried about she. It could hurt her deeply. Jacob held back a smile from lighting his face as she pushed him and called him 'mutt'. A lot of others who called him that got on his nerves, but when Renesmee said it, it was sort of cute. " Do you have any idea how sexy you look when you call me mutt?" he whispered in her ear with a deep tone and a smug smile coming to his face. He rolled his eyes are her when she brought up acting like a teen. He wasn't sure if she was meaning how he acted as a teen, still, even know he was 26. Jacob knew he would always act like a teenager, because thats how he looked and would always look for all of his life. He didn't mind been a teen for all of his life, it felt and looked for fun than been an adult. ' She caught more than his full attention when when she mentioned that she should be waking up with him. He didn't think that she should be at all. He cared for her and it was up to her if she wanted to wake up with him each and every day, he wasn't going to force her to and he hoped that she was thinking that she had to. " Ness... I-I... " he paused twice unsure how to put it right. " You shouldn't be doing anything, that you don't want to do. If you only want to do this because you think you should be, I don't want it to be like that... I wouldn't ever force you into something that you think you should be doing, because you think its your duty to. I am not like that and I don't want you to be either..." he turned red in the face just thinking about it. He turned half away from her, trying not to show how red he was. He could feel that his blood was running faster through his body than usual... he wished it would stop, it was only making thinking clearly harder, he couldn't understand why but. Quickly with hearing her suggestion of running with the others on patrols, he turned back to her, feeling the blood draining away from his face. It was the last thing he wanted her to do. He wouldn't be able to to focus on what he had to do or know that she was safe. " No Ness, you can't. I wouldn't ever forgive myself if something happen to you... " He smiled with his eyes closed, feeling her arms around his waist. " I'll never leave you Renesmee, as long as you never leave me" he smiled, pressing a warm and soft kiss on her lips and pulling her closer to him for a second. He heard that she was going to see Charlie. Jacob would have offered to go with her, but after what happen when she was born, he didn't think it would be such a good idea. Charlie didn't seem to be the same around him since. Jacob didn't want her to go, not yet... but he didn't protest or say anything. He half laughed when she mentioned about 'hitting him was like hitting a brick all.' He knew it, all too well, but it didn't ever lose its humour each time he heard about it. " I don't think that would be a good idea miss Cullen" he said in another deep tone and smiled smugly at her, with deep dark eyes looking towards her. " Then neither of us would have any fun at all," he added, with a teasing tone, half walking away from her.