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Post by Jacob Black on Jan 18, 2011 0:54:56 GMT 10
With his hand resting softly around her back as she leant back towards the ground, his other hand rested softly of her heart. He kissed her harder for a second; disappointed that he didn’t have her heart’s frantic beat to feel under his hand. He sighed, half pulling away from her, but not breaking their kiss. His hand ran down from her heart, along the buttons of her shirt, breaking the seams of the buttons that held her top closed, down towards her waist, knowing what she wanted. He smiled against her lips, breaking away and smiling cockily down at her as he held her gaze carefully. His eyes turned darker yet again, lustful.
He leant down, pressing his body against her as much as he could bear with what he was feeling, and licked her lips quickly, teasing her again, before taking off towards the ocean, phasing and then jumping into the water before shifting back and looking back to her with a dark, crooked smile, waiting for her near the shoreline, leaning up against a bolder, watching and waiting. He knew that she wouldn’t take kindly to his extravagant teasing . . . which was just what he wanted. He smiled darkly at the thought.
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Post by Bella Swan on Jan 25, 2011 15:12:48 GMT 10
Bella couldn't believe what she was just witnessing. No way was Jake just getting up and heading off like all of this was a joke and funny. Bella now felt angry and flustered. She slowly pushed herself up to sit and pulled her knees up to her chest. Maybe all this they had done tonight was wrong. She was a vampire. She was a mother now..He was still the kid she remembered ten years ago.
Tears nearly broke free to run down her soft cheeks. She watched as he went into the water, only to lean to the rock after coming out. No. She didn't want to play this catch and mouse game anymore. She wanted to be with Jacob in such a way she had never been. Hesitation came a few moments later when she pushed up to stand and dusted herself off.
One of the things Bella did, even to this day, when she was upset or hurt, she tried to pull herself from that situation. Whether it was emotionally or physically. Maybe she had done something wrong by kissing Jake tonight and wanting to spend time with him as they were?
Bella turned to head for her jeans which was a short distance away in the sand. Once she got to them, she bent over and started to get dressed. She was shaking but you had to be close enough to see such thing from her. With a glance to Jake, she turned and started to walk from the beach. Making it clear, as sure as he knew her, she was now hurt.
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Post by Jacob Black on Jan 25, 2011 15:24:22 GMT 10
His eye kept to the sky as he waited, wondering what she was going to do with him down. He looked back to her and saw her now leaving.
He was confused to why she was leaving. He sighed and phased running after her, knowing that she may run if something was upsetting her. His wolf form would be the only way that he would be able to stop her from running from him. At times like his he was actually glad that he was a werewolf, though he still rathered if he was still human.
He ran after her quickly and jumped in front of her, his eyes watching her carefully, having no idea what was going on. He phased back to talk to her, really wishing that she could read his mind instead of going back to human.
"What's wrong?" he murmured, staying a few feet away just to be safe. He looked up to her unsure what to think her answer would be. He didn't have the faintest idea what he had done or why she had just got up and went to leave him. "I thought you wanted this?" he mumured again, now looking away from her.
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Post by Bella Swan on Jan 25, 2011 15:36:29 GMT 10
If it wasn't hard enough for Bella to walk through the wet thick sand it was even harder when Jacob had come before her out of the blue. She hadn't expected it and almost lost her balance but reached out just in time to run fingers through his thick fur as he was still the wolf. Only a moment later to change into his human form. She huffed out at him and stared at him.
"I'm sorry." Of course she was talking about her apparent clumsiness. She sighed and brought her hand down to her side now that she was steadied more or less on her feet.
Sadness was held in her eyes. He didn't understand. Nor did she really probably for that matter. " Jacob.. I wanted you...to.." She sighed, not bothering to explain. Maybe he didn't understand.
She turned from Jacob right then. She didn't leave but didn't dare look at him. She was so mad. So confused. What was going on with her wishes, needs, and desires. Her love for Jacob? That very thought had her turning back around to face him. " I didn't want you to get up and run off to the water and everything. I didn't want your touches to stop. Didn't you see that?" She was confused. Was it her? Maybe she messed up the whole evening. It would be like Bella to.
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Post by Jacob Black on Jan 25, 2011 15:47:13 GMT 10
He could see the pain in her eyes and still he didn't understand what he had done. He listened to her closely, wanting to understand what was going on with her. He looked to the side, now sort of understanding what he had done wrong. "I'm sorry. . . I - I did, but... I was only playing with you Bella." he looked up to her, a little red in the face. It had been so clear what he had don wrong, and yet, he didn't see it until now. "I told you, I'm new to this Bella."
He walked up to her slowly, hoping that no inner animal would suddenly spark after just phasing and with been around her. He placed his hand on her shoulder and kissed her cheek sweetly, murmuring in her ear, "I'm sorry. I didn't know."
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Post by Bella Swan on Jan 25, 2011 15:57:02 GMT 10
It was so easy to get lost in the moments she shares with Jacob. Way too easily to be honest. He knew her best of all. It should of been them two together, many would say. It should of been.. Those infamous words. Words that she hated, no less.
Bella felt his touch upon her small shoulder. It was then she leaned into him. She wanted that feeling once more that everything was alright. Not the confusion she felt. Why did life have to be so complicated? Complicated in her sense of the word.
His kiss brought her head tilting to the side and against his face. Her eyes begin to close. Bella brought up her arms to lay against his chest. She knew it was late. For the both of them in one fashion or another. Maybe they could just sit and or lay beside one another and be close. Just to revel in that moment? This had her head lifting up.
"It's too late for me to go back and drive that far Jacob. None would mind if I crashed with you. I'm sure you are getting tired?" She had to remember, he was human, in some sort of way and needed sleep eventually.
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Post by Jacob Black on Jan 25, 2011 16:12:50 GMT 10
Her body lanuage was speaking to him, he could tell that she still wanted him. He couldn't believe how stupid he had been. He should have known that she would act that way to how he had acted. Anyone would be upset towards what he had done. He sighed, running his hand down the side of her face with a smile coming to his face. He still seen her as beautiful, just like he used to.
He sighed, dropping his hand as she spoke, brining him out of the deep thoughts that he had been thinking while touching her cheek with the side of his hand. "No, I'm not. I'm used to staying out this late," he smiled, "Especially when it means that I see more of you. I could stay awake all night."
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Post by Bella Swan on Feb 1, 2011 16:30:46 GMT 10
  
Bella wasn't sure what to truly think at the moment with Jacob. He had her so confused and she wasn't even sure of her own reactions at the moment. Maybe what she had been hoping and wishing for wasn't possible? It couldn't be right, now that she was a vampire and married to Edward. None had known though, for the time being about them, other than the two of them.
Feeling his touch upon her shoulder, she had lifted her gaze to meet him. Her eyes hold to his own in sadness, confusion and that slight familiar void that seemed to be there more often than not now that she was a vampire. His touch she had wanted so bad. It longed deep within her being, but she just didn't know what to do about it at the moment. For the split second, she pressed into the touch and then pulled away. It was about this time that Jacob had pulled his hand away and lowered it.
She listened to what he had to say. There was a little nod of her head to Jacob. She was told he wasn't tired but what to do was the question that hung to her thoughts now. So what do you want to do?
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Post by Jacob Black on Feb 1, 2011 16:45:56 GMT 10
He felt so confused to what to think, say and do. It was all too much for him to take. Her eyes held his as she looked up to him. He could see the sadness in her eyes and just wanted to take the pain he had caused away.
He wrapped his arms around her, holding her tightly against him. He sighed deeply into her shoulder, his eyes closed as he held her.
No matter what he did tonight, he would hurt someone. If he was to turn his back on Bella and go back to Renesmee, he knew that he would hurt Bella, and if he turned his back on Renesmee and went to Bella, he would be hurting his imprint, that meant the world to him. He was so confused to what he wanted, needed and what to think or say. He didn't want to hurt anyone, but he knew what was going to happen . . . someone was going to be hurt and he hated it.
He smiled slightly, taking a step back to look at her. "Anything you wish to do," he murmured, just happy to be spending time with her. He had missed her so much and would do anything just to be with her.
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Post by Bella Swan on Feb 1, 2011 16:56:57 GMT 10
Bella did not enjoy seeing that she was causing him just as much pain as this whole encounter was causing her. It added unnecessary stress for the both of them. When he wrapped his arms around to her to hold her tightly, she fell against his chest lightly. He was so warm. Something she hardly felt with the past years. It brought back the vivid memories of when she was a human and either way too warm or way too cold. She would of laughed at this thought had it been just any other time.
The hug was short lived, coming to an end as Jacob released his arms from that embrace and took a step back to look at her. She did one of those not so needed swallows, out of a bit of nervousness. She never liked when he looked at her like that. It made her wonder all the more what he was thinking.
So it was left up to her on what to do. She finally peeled her eyes from his and took a look around. His house wasn't too far from where they were. Perhaps they should head back there. As eyes return to him, she offered a slight smile. Lets head back to your house. Before letting him really thing on answering, Bella had turned and started walking in the direction of his house. Careful of her steps though, being she wasn't wanting to trip in sand. That would not be a good thing for her.
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Post by Jacob Black on Feb 1, 2011 17:12:09 GMT 10
"Okay," he murmured, basically talking to himself as she had already made her way back to his place. He phased and started to walk beside her, his gaze on the ground, deep in thought. He could still tell that she was upset with him and he didn't know what would make it up to her.
'Why can't she understand I was just playing?' he thought as he kept walking, glad that none of the pack would be still up to hear his thoughts.
He shook his head, having no idea how he had gotten into this mess. He was so fustrated that if he wasn't already in his wolf form, he would be shaking so hard that he wouldn't have any choice but to phase.
He didn't know what was going on. He felt different lately. Like his inner animal was taking him over.
He looked up to her, with pleading eyes. 'I'm sorry Bella, he thought, running a head of her, not wanting her to see just how upset he was. He growled, kicking the ground with his paw and let dirt cover his paw.
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Post by Bella Swan on Feb 18, 2011 13:14:44 GMT 10
Bella had just gotten back to his house and was heading towards the old wooden picnic table when she glanced to her side and seen Jacob. Well, the Jacob in his wolf form. So strong and ...furry. She had just been about to reach out and run her hands through his fur but he had taken off.
There came another side and she just stopped walking. Looking to him as he ran off ahead of her now and kicked at the dirt. She knew he was sorry. She knew well, even with seeing the look in his eyes. In fact, she was sorry as well. Maybe all this had been her own fault? She let out a sigh and started to walk where he was.
Again she tried to reach out and instead of just running fingers through his thick (and smelly fur) she leaned against his upper arms and neck. Thin arms wrap around his neck lightly. " It's not your fault.. it's mine. I am sorry." Her voice came out in a soft whisper. What was wrong between them? Bella only wanted things to go the way she wanted them, in her own stubborn little world.
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Post by Jacob Black on Feb 18, 2011 17:20:31 GMT 10
He ran over to the side of hill, where it dropped off and let you see the whole forest of La Push. He sat there, listening to all the sounds and watching all the sights of the forest before him, just trying to forget everything that had happened tonight. He should have had more control. He should have known better and he did, but that didn’t stop anything that had happened. He wished that he could have taken everything back.
The wind blew softly through his coat. He sighed, wishing he knew where he had gone wrong. He was so confused by his own actions. He felt a hand run through his thick coat, her leaning into his upper arms and neck, and then arms wrap around his neck. He mentally didn’t take much noticed to the touch, he didn’t want to, but that didn’t stop him physically from taking notice. He leant into her touch, not been able to help it. He let out a deep sigh, trying to think what had happened to cause all this.
He looked to her swiftly after hearing her words, looking deep into her eyes. He didn’t understand how it was her fault, or even how she got the idea of how it was her fault. He shook his head, disagreeing. ‘How is it you’re fault Bella?’’ he thought, looking down to the forest and then to the moon above them while thinking deeply. ‘I wanted it just as much if not more . . . ’ he paused, closing his eyes, feeling how hard it was to admit things that he hadn’t ever thought he would be admitting in his life. It was one of the hardest things he had ever admitted before, even when it was just to himself. ‘ I wanted it before you even said anything,’ he sighed, hanging his head. He knew that she needed to hear it from him.
Slowly he shifted back to his human form. He knew if he changed back quickly it was a possibility that he could hurt her. He wasn’t able to control his emotions as easily when he did it quick, even when he wasn’t upset. He sighed in his human form, still staring out to the horizon. “It’s not your fault Bella . . . trust me. It wasn’t and isn’t your fault.” he looked back to her then, looking her in the eyes, wanting her to understand, but he was sure that she wasn’t going to understand at all.
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Post by Bella Swan on Feb 28, 2011 15:30:49 GMT 10
Bella loosened her hold that she had on
Jacob once he started to shift back into his human
form. Only when he was completely finished did her
arms resume that hold around him. For some
reason whatever the reason was, she didn't
want to let go of him at the moment. This had
been a very intense night. Probably for him too
and didn't want to lose the closeness of him. His
overly warm body too felt great to her too, being
she didn't get to experience the heat of a body
on a daily basis.
Bella listened to him tell her that it hadn't been
her fault for all that happened that night. Even
though she felt she should be believing him,
she couldn't muster doing so. Somewhere
deep inside her, she felt like she might of
pushed him into wanting more from him.
Granted he was telling her he wanted it
too, she felt a part of him hadn't.
Bella lifted her head up and looked into
his eyes. Her own eyes held a little bit of
sadness in them. With a soft nod of her
head, she laid her head back to his chest
and closed her eyes. Fingers pressed
against the flesh at his back while she
just relished in the moment of being so
close to him.
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Post by Jacob Black on Feb 28, 2011 15:44:33 GMT 10
He sighed as she rested her head back on his chest. He held her tightly against him, still getting the feeling that she didn't understand just how he felt. He laid back against the cool grass against his back, still holding her close to him. His hand ran up and down the side of her back, along her rib cage as he stared up to the sky, thinking deeply. "Bella," he murmured, still looking up to the sky. "Don't ever doubt my feelings for you. They've always been the same and always will be."
His thumb touched her chin, making her looking up to him as his lips brushed over hers, kissing her softly and then nipping her lower lip. He moaned lightly just as he felt the touch of her lips on his. He loved the feeling of her smooth and cold lips against his. It was the only thing he liked how her been a vampire. He missed everything else though. He could feel his heart quicken at the touch of her skin, and the feeling of getting lost in her coming over him again.
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