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Post by Jacob Black on Dec 27, 2010 16:19:51 GMT 10
Down at La Push by the beach, Jacob stood beside Bella, between the two old motorbikes, looking to Bella with a wide smile. He hadn't smiled so wide in a long time.
He couldn't believe how much he had missed her.
Suddenly, a shiver coursed through him and an image came to his mind, how she had just kissed him back at the house. He touched his lips, dazed at both the feeling and thought. He half broke of the dazed state and shook his head, trying to get the rest of it to go. He was confused to why something like that had just happened.
"So Do you remember anything that I taught you?" he smiled, wondering if she had remembered anything that he had taught her ten years ago. He couldn't blame her if she didn't, it was after all ten years ago.
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Post by Bella Swan on Dec 27, 2010 16:24:37 GMT 10
She turned to look at the two bikes. God. He never got rid of those two old things? Why she had to wonder. " You still have these...but...why?" She moved forward to the one she had rode once and rolled her eyes at him. " Good grief Jacob, I might still be clumbsy, but I would never ever forget what you taught me. I never forget things you've done for me."
Whe she spoke of her remembering all, she held her gaze back at him. She watched his face, she hadn't been blind to the fact what her kissing him had done to him. He still had feelings for her, hadn't he? After all that time? She glanced back to the two bikes and sighs.
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Post by Jacob Black on Dec 27, 2010 16:41:05 GMT 10
He shrugged not knowing either why he had kept them so long. "Memories I guess," he smiled, turning a little red in the face and then laughed lightly to her saying about been clumbsy. "You're not clumbsy any more Bells." He looked up to her, with her gaze holding his. He went flushed in the face, looking away before she did, looking to the hard ground under them.
He couldn't keep hiding how he was feeling. Nothing had changed between them to how it used to be, he thought that it had, but he was by far wrong. He sighed, looking back to her. "Bell..." he trailed off, turning away, hoping that she hadn't heard him say anything.
He leant down, checking the gears one each of the bikes before they started. "So are you ready?" he asked with a strong tone.
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Post by Bella Swan on Dec 27, 2010 16:51:51 GMT 10
"Yeah." Bella tried to sound enthused, but she wasn't at the moment. She did not want to ride a bike apart from Jacob. Why was he doing this. When she heard her name, she perked up and turned. Nah, it was something else it seemed. With her breath held, not needing that desire to breath, she took an unsteady step forward to the bike she was familar with. She touched the seat and then pulled her hand back. She glanced back to Jake and shook her head. " Let's do something else...like take a walk, or go swimming ...something else.. Id rather be next to you, Jacob."
Bella turned back from the bike and headed towards the water. Coming to the edge, she wrapped arms around her chest and looked across the rippling waves. Her eyes closed a moment later as she focused on all the sounds around her. She heard Jacob behind her, the water rushing before. Life all around. God she missed this. She missed her time here so much. She was a part of the reservation in her mind and heart, regardless of being what she now was.
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Post by Jacob Black on Dec 27, 2010 17:10:42 GMT 10
He looked up at her from the bikes, a little surprised that she had changed her mind so suddenly, but he didn't care as long as she was happy and with him. It surprised him that she said that she wanted to be next to him. He didn't know what she meant, but again didn't care.
He watched her carefully walking over to the water, and then standing on the shore line of ocean. He walked up to her slowly, wrapping his arms around her tightly. "I've missed," he murmured into her neck, kissing her softly and when leaning back and stepping away towards the water.
His hand swept through the water, feeling the coolness flowing through his fingers. He stood up straight, taking off his shirt and throwing it to the side, running into the ocean to where it was deeper. He looked back to her and smiled, waiting for her to come out to him.
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Post by Bella Swan on Dec 27, 2010 17:19:38 GMT 10
For what seemed like forever to her she remained standing there at the edge of the water. Her hand had found its way to her neck and was holding lightly pressed to her neck. The spot he had kissed was just below her palm and fingers. It was a moment she had wished she could of been human, to experience her hearts rapid beating. It would of surely been beating wildly out of her chest right then.
When he pulled free, she found herself frowning. She hadn't wanted him to let go of her. It seemed to be something the both of them were doing. Pulling each other against one another, yet pushing each other away. It seemed like the beginning in a way all over again. Denial of thier own, each of them doing this again and again to one another.
Her eyes went to him and she watched him take off his shirt. Every time she had seen him, he seemed to be more define. She wanted to reach out and touch him. Feel him against her and under soft tips of fingers. When he went off into the water, she finally smiled, bending over to take off her jeans but left the loose fitting shirt and her under garments on. She then headed off towards him in the water and when she got to where she was, she reached up and wrapped her arms around his neck. She loved this. Her laughter. His closeness. Everything else could of slipped away at that moment to her. She loosely laid her cheek to his shoulder and sighed out happily. " I wish we could make this night go on forever. "
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Post by Jacob Black on Dec 27, 2010 17:43:01 GMT 10
He smiled seeing that she was going ot join him. He watched as he seened her swimming over to him and then wrapping her arms around his neck. He smiled and looked into her gaze, wrapping his arms around her back, forgetting that she wasn't as brital as Renesmee in the rought ocean and needed his hold to her close to him. No Bella didn't need his help to keep her close, but he still wanted her to be close to him. He couldn't understand why he was acting the way he was. Why he wanted her to be so close. He had Renesmee to do this with, so why wasn't he with her? Why hadn't she came with her mother and father like she had been invited, but more of the question was, why hadn't Edward came?
He shook his head confused, hearing what Bella said. "So do I," he murmured, leaning into her hold. He wasn't sure if he should do what he wanted, he didn't feel right about it when he had Renesmee, but at the same time, he left like it was the right thing to do. He sighed, leaning back against the surface of the water, looking up to the dusk sky, light up brightly in pinks, purples, oranges and reds. He was confused by what to think, what to do.
His hand ran slowly down the side of her arm, he liked feeling the coolness of her skin against his, but he wished that he still had her heart to listen to, her chocolate brown eyes to look into. It still upset him that she had changed into something that he used to hate so much and still did at times. He wanted her to be human again, wanting her to be human again, but still, even if she wasn't human, wasn't vampire, he cared for her, no matter what she loved, what she didn't. Nothing was ever going to change that for him.
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Post by Bella Swan on Dec 30, 2010 12:44:14 GMT 10
One of the pluses to being a vampire was that her intuition was much stronger. She could sense things alot better. Bella tipped her head back enough so that she could study Jacobs eyes. "Alright, talk. What is wrong?" There would be no way she would let this topic go, she had known him long enough to know he was off on something. Some thought had plagued him.
The coolness of the water invigorated Bella. She lowered her one hand while she waited for him to speak and made small little circles on the waters surface. Occsasionally her eyes would flicker from the water to him. "You know, Jacob, being a vampire will never change what I am inside. Who you know. That person is still there. Always will be. You still get upset over my decission, don't you?" Her words were so soft and faint. This conversation was one they had not had in a very long time. Perhaps it was needed. Just after finishing speaking, she leaned forward and brushed her soft lips against the flesh of his warm cheek.
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Post by Jacob Black on Dec 30, 2010 14:24:17 GMT 10
Sensing that the coolness of the water was bothering her, his hand ran up her back slowly, trying to make her feel warmer. He sighed when she asked what was wrong. He knew by the way of her tone that she wasn't going to let him not answer her so easily. He didn't speak for a minute, thinking of how to explain things that he was thinking and feeling. In the meantime as he thought, she caught his attention by her voice changing soft and faint, almost silent. His eyes closed softly, shaking his head faintly and then looked to her and back to the stary sky. "I know it hasn't changed you on the inside Bella, just at times I miss the things on the outside you had too, but still its not you Bella, its just... nothing has changed between us since I was a kid, I still feel the same about you, only I have Renesmee as well. I don't want to hurt either of you, but I know sooner or later I will hurt one of you and I don't want that, but I can't choose." he looked up to her with confused eyes, then feeling the soft press of her lips on his cheek. He sighed, leaning into her touch, not wanting it to go away. There was so much he had thought had changed between them over the years, but nothing had changed and it bothered him that it hadn't. He thought so much of Renesmee, he loved her truly, but how was it that he felt exactly the sameway for her mother?
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Post by Bella Swan on Dec 30, 2010 14:34:13 GMT 10
The one thing that would never change between the two was her love of Jacob. She could fool herself into thinking it did not matter anymore, now that she was without a soul of sorts, but it was a lie she'd only tell herself. She knew he felt at times what she did now.. being in love with two people. It was the toughest thing a person had to go through in thier lives.
Bella listened to what Jacob had to say and sighed. She didn't want anyone getting hurt either, but wondered if it was fair to either of them to go back to the denial that was there at the beginning. It couldn't be the right thing to do, regardless, of anyone getting hurt.
Bella felt his press against her as her lips continued to brush over his skin. She continued to trail her lips down along his jaw, over his neck to his shoulders where teeth would lightly rake over his shoulder. As she realized that she could of broke his skin with such an action, she pulled her head back abruptly. Bad thing to forget...she having sharp teeth. Eh. She pushed the thought away and looked into Jacobs eyes. " Jacob, can I ask you something...honestly getting a truthful answer?"
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Post by Jacob Black on Dec 30, 2010 14:53:42 GMT 10
He sighed feeling her kisses running down his neck. He shruddered feeling her teeth graze over his shoulder. He wished so much that she could break his skin, like Renesmee to what felt like so long ago.
He looked to her, wishing that she hadn't stopped. He wanted listening carefully to what she had to say. He nodded once, agreeing to her. He would do anything for her and agree to anything that she wanted. He would do the same for both of his girls. He loved them both and wanted to do all he could for them. "Of course Bella, you know I would do anything for you."
His eyes starred up to her, slightly smiling as he wrapped his arm around her, pulling her closer to him. His hand trailed down the side of her face slowly, leaning into her lips. "I would die for you Bella.Tell me your question," he murmured against her mouth.
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Post by Bella Swan on Dec 30, 2010 15:04:20 GMT 10
Bella closed her eyes to give herself a moment to focus on his touches and feel against her. She wanted so much more of his touches. So much more of her own touches upon him. She wanted to do things with him that she had never done, aside from just kissing. She wondered if he could tell this? He must be able to with the way she was pressed against him like their two bodies fit together so perfectly.
As she felt him press her slender frame against him more, she reopened her eyes and brought her lips to trail down his neck. Instinct had a way of taking over at times, this was a time it was doing it for Bella. She kissed and licked along his neck. There was a time or two she nipped at his skin, but took to being careful not to bite him. If she were to do that, she didn't know if she could stop once she had started and tasted him. The desire for him was as great as it had ever been. Similar to what she felt for Edward.
Now that he agreed to answer her question here is when she asked what she had wanted to so many times in the past. From the moment he kissed her on that snow peak. " Did you ever want to be with me more? Or like.. Wonder what it would be like to be with me?"
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Post by Jacob Black on Dec 30, 2010 15:24:10 GMT 10
Like he always used to sense, he could tell that she was pysically nervous around him. He was confused by it but accepted it, wondering if she felt the same way as he did towards her. She had to, otherwise she wouldn't be acting like she was, would she?
He sighed leaning into the touch of her lips and the feeling of her licking him. His eyes closed, breathing deeply, trying to keep his focus. She had no idea what she was doing to him. He couldn't believe that she was kissing him so willingly and strongly, unlike how it used to be when they both were younger, he had to force for to kiss him. He couldn't believe that what he was feeling was real and not a dream.
He heard her question and had to focus even more to answer her. He nodded as he tried to remember how to speak. "Every second of the day," he murmured, feeling red in the cheeks as squeezing his eyes closed tightly, trying to break of the deep dazed state he was in to speak again. She wanted the truth and he promised it to her, but there was one thing he wanted her to answer him truthfully too and he hoped by the strong tone of his voice it would tell her what he wanted from her answer... "Why?"
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Post by Bella Swan on Dec 30, 2010 15:39:46 GMT 10
She lifted up from her kissing only long enough to respond to him." Because I have wondered about it myself. I am wondering about it now, Jacob." She held her gaze to him, wondering how he would take hearing this from her. Something she had never openly admitted to him.
Well now that the words were out in the open she felt as if she could relax in his arms and did so. She melted more against him and went back to kissing his neck and brought lips to caress down his shoulder towards his very upper chest. There was a pulse point there. She could feel his pulse at this place just as hard as she had on his neck. Would it hurt him for one small taste of him? Just one?
She closed her eyes, silently reveling for that instant in the warm flowing blood underneath his skin. She had only tasted blood from a human or something of the living status once.. that was when she as giving birth and becoming a vampire what seemed like ages ago.
Without thinking her mouth opened a bit more. She could do this.. One small bite and taste. It wouldn't hurt her..or him, would it. Her fangs grew sharp and she raked them softly over his skin. A second like she bit down into his skin. She knew he'd feel it, but.. but she just wanted to taste him. If he got mad..she'd deal with it. Afterwards, anyhow. As soon as she bit him, that blood came flowing into her mouth and she moaned. Gasped. Human blood.. She loved the taste of it and how hot it was. Nothing like the animals she hunted and fed on. Remembering she had to pull away, she did hesitantly after a couple more seconds. She couldnt help but lick her lips. Savoring the taste.
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Post by Jacob Black on Dec 30, 2010 16:11:08 GMT 10
Feeling her gaze holding his after hearing her answer. He sighed, looking away from her. She was tempting him and having an inner animal egging him on, it wasn't helping anything. He felt her relax against his body. He tried to think to Renesmee, thinking of how much he loved her and how much she loved him. But it didn't help anything. An image of him kissing her flashed into his mind. He felt dazed as he realized what he was doing.
He leant away from Bella, after realizing that he kissed her and licked her lips. "I'm sorry," he murmured, pulling and leaning away. He could feel his cheeks red and turning redder with every kiss that trailed down his neck, shoulder and chest. He sighed deeply feeling her kiss his pulse point, he knew what she was going to do and he wanted it, if it was anything alike how Renesmee had bitten him, he wanted it more than anything.
He breathed deeply, feeling her teeth grazing over his skin. He grimaced at the sting that he felt, but hid it from her. He panted with the feeling of her bitting and drinking him. His arms wrapped around her shoulders, and sighed when she stopped. He looked down to her and smiled, the side of his hand running down the side of her face again.
Willingly he leant down and kissed her again, but harsher this time. He licked her lips, teasing her, pulling away and splashed water at her. He swam backwards watching her as he splashed and laughed. "Your good at what you do Bells," he smiled, not really confident on saying it how it would make sense to anyone who didn't know what he would mean if they hadn't been there the whole time. He didn't want her to see him red in the face, and that's what he would be if he had said it how he wanted to.
"You have no idea how good that felt," he murmured, looking up to the dark purple and pink sky above them.
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