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Post by Bella Swan on Feb 28, 2011 16:08:52 GMT 10
  
Once she was on the ground and laying against his warm flesh Bella lifted and squirmed. Her shifting was to get more comfortable against not only the grass but to bring herself more against Jacobs side. Once his hands started moving and caressed the sides of her body and elswhere, she tightened her closed eyes and relaxed even more against him. Nothing at the moment could bring her out of the relaxed state of mind she was in.
Jacob always had a way of comforting her. No matter what. She could be crying. She could be happy. She could be any type of emotion and she knew she could count on him to be there to either make it better or to comfort her. Just as he had been doing now. She loved this about Jacob.
One of her own hands lifted. A finger traced its way across his muscled chest. She thought back to the time before she became a vampire and Edward had left her. It was around the time Jacob had just become a part of the pack. She remembered how he cut off all his hair. How he gotten so muscular. And even that tattoo, she remembered seeing that the first time. Her eyes opened and she looked up and into his eyes as her head have to lift to do so.
"Jacob.." She paused thinking of what to say exactly."Do you remember back to that first time I had found out you were a wolf? Seeing you with your muscled body and the tattoo..God, even all your hair gone?!"
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Post by Jacob Black on Feb 28, 2011 16:27:52 GMT 10
Feeling her fingers tracing over his chest made him shiver under her touch, but not in a bad way, in a pleasurable way. His attention was caught by her when she said his name. He looked down to her, wondering what she was thinking. She mentioned if he remembered when she found out he was a wolf. He grimaced at the thought. He wouldn't ever forget it. It was the worst time of his life. He thought that he would have lost Bella for sure, wither he was with her not. If he was with her, he would be worried about going off and hurting her and if he wasn't with her, he was still hurting her.
"Yes," he murmured. "I remember. I couldn't ever forget it. Why?" He looked to her from the corner of his eye, wondering why she suddenly brought it up. He sighed, all the feelings, emotions and memories now flooding back to him. He shook his head, thinking of the first time he phased. He didn't want to think about it anymore.
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Post by Bella Swan on Feb 28, 2011 16:38:12 GMT 10
Bella watched Jacob a few moments before she bothered to speak. At first she wasn't sure if he wanted her to talk about this part of his life. Infact she wasn't sure at all if she should be but treaded over that line of unknown anyhow. The worst could happen? He could get upset and tell her to change the subject.
" I was wondering what it was like for you. You never really told me about that time. Remember I had to come here to find you, why you weren't answering my calls and all?"
That was one of those times that Jacob had promised to never hurt her and had during that time. Which she could understand now, after that fact, why it had been done. She wasn't mad or anything. More so of a curiousity and to have a conversation other than the lack of Jacob wanting to be with her intimately. Because...well that...she still wrote off to being all her fault to why things happened the way the had that night.
Once she had asked him those things, her eyes left his to watch as her hand and fingers continued to play along his chest. She did not want to even dream of what Edward would do if he came and seen the two of them like this. Surely it would not be a good thing.
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Post by Jacob Black on Feb 28, 2011 16:49:00 GMT 10
He stayed silent for a moment thinking before he answered. "Hard and painful is probably the best two words to explain it. I never answered you're calls because Sam gave me strick orders that I couldn't talk or be with you, and I agreed with them because I did think that I would hurt you. Then everytime you called, it just made me mad and I couldn't control the phasing then. I wanted to talk to you, but the phasing stopped me. I just ignored the phone after a while. I tried to forget everything, but it was impossible. Trying to think of anything else but you was impossible. . . and at times, it still is." His eyes kept to the stars the whole time he spoke, trying to keep his head clear of thought of anything else but what he was talking about. It was a hard time in his life, but in away he was glad. He had her in his life forever because of it and he wouldn't have it any other way.
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Post by Bella Swan on Mar 13, 2011 8:46:00 GMT 10
Bella listened as Jacob tried explaining to her what that time was like when he began his transformation. She could only imagine, with his words stressing this as well, it was painful as all heck. With a soft sigh, she glanced down a moment.
This reminded her of when she herself became a vampire. It hurt like hell to be to honest. It felt as if her entire body had a mind of its own and wanted to burn up and burst into flames. It was a painful time she often tried to forget.
Pushing up to stand, Bella walked over to where Jacob was and standing behind him, she wrapped her arms up around his neck. Her body pressed against his back lightly. Instantly she felt his heated body and moaned out accidently. He was so alive. He was so warm. It teased her and tantalized her. Even as this happened, she did not want to pull from him. Instead her eyes closed and she pressed her lips against the back of his neck softly. It was like she was almost capturing that very moment of time holding him and did not want it to end. Ever.
" Jacob..." She didn't know what else to say at the moment, other than his name felt so right to add right then.
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Post by Jacob Black on Mar 13, 2011 15:50:21 GMT 10
Catching his attention as she stood, he looked up to her, wondering what she was doing. He hoped she wasn't leaving because he had upset her again. Sitting behind him and wrapping her arms around his neck, he leant into her cool touch and smiled as he heard her moan. His left hand wrapped around her back as his right hand ran softly over her hand as he held it. His eyes closed with tranquillity coming over him as he breathed in her soft sweet rose scent. Her scent was different to any of the other vampires, it was sweet and soft. He loved it.
His eyes opened again, looking to the stars above them. He thought how lucky he was to have her, he wouldn't have had it anyother way. He shuddered and moaned as he felt her lips at the back of his neck. His hand swept over her hand again as he eyed her from the corner of his eye when he heard her speak his name. "Yes, Bella?" he murmured, almost breathlessly.
Ooc: Hey hun,
Just thought that I would let you know that I'm making a new website as this one is slowly dying. I'm still working on the plot, but I was thinking of doing a pre Breaking Dawn rp. Its just about done so it wont be long until its up and going. I was wondering if you had an ideas for the plot, and if you would like to be my Bella on there again? ^_^
We can finish off our thread here if you like? I'm really enjoying roleplaying with you!
twilightthenewdawn.proboards.com is the new site if you would like to check it out, but like I said, its still in the works so it may not look too good lol. Would have PMed you, but I know oyu had trouble seeing your messages  Talk soon <3 |
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Post by Bella Swan on Mar 13, 2011 16:27:15 GMT 10
Bella let out a soft sigh type moan herself. She probably shouldn't be doing the things shes done that day with Jacob, being she was married to Edward, but it felt so right with him. It felt so comfortable. She might of gone as far as to think it was the way it should of been all along, had things not turned out the way they had. Anyhow, for the longest of minutes that passed, she didn't answer his ' yes bella.' She just wanted to relish this moment as if it would come to some unexpected ending. An ending she definitely didn't want to think about.
Bella slowly opened her eyes halfway a couple of minutes later and lazily spoke out a couple of words. Her grip never releasing or easing, even with his gentle caresses. She was enjoying that far to much to have wanted it to end.
I wish we could stay like this, this exact moment forever. Isn't it so peaceful and calming?
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Post by Jacob Black on Mar 13, 2011 16:44:34 GMT 10
He nodded once and smiled, understanding what she was saying. "I do too. I haven't felt the atmosphere like this before," he whispered, still holding her hand softly in his. He laid back against her, staring up to the sky as he listened to her soft breathing. It was just so peaceful and quiet, he hadn't ever found the forest so quiet before. It was nice and calming. Something Jacob wasn't used to.
A soft breaze came up and he smiled as the feeling of the grass swaying from side to side in the breeze against his skin. He went deep in thought as he saw a falling star cross the sky. "You if could have anything in the world . . . what would it be Bella?" he asked softly in both wonder and curiosity of what her answer would be. He was sure that her wish would to be with him, but it didn't worry him, he understood her feelings and motives, but he did want to know what in her life was missing. He could only think of one thing he wanted and the one thing that was missing in his life. A family.
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Post by Bella Swan on Mar 13, 2011 17:00:45 GMT 10
Bella had caught sight of the star and watched it for a few moments. It was something you didn't see often and she found it captivating. A soft murmer of delight came from somewhere within her as she watched the star. When Jake leaned back against her more, she let one hand slip from his neck and grasp to slide down to his waist. Her fingers looking as if they were trying to find a spot to cling to. In fact, they were. She wasn't wanting to have him move from her in any way, shape, or form. She was enjoying this time far too much for the slightest of movements away.
His question caught that spot in her throat. Just how would she answer this? If she could have anything in the world, what would it be? She had two hopes and wishes to be honest but wouldn't share the one for fear of hurting Jake and sounding greedy. She wanted Edward, he had been gone for so long it seemed on family business for Carlisle. That in itself hurt her. She'd never tell anyone but the pain she often felt when not around Edward could nearly be compared to those times he had left her before their marriage.
The other hope and wish? She wanted many more nights like this with Jake. She wanted much more than the way things turned out for them tonight. Only Jake was still a virgin and that made her feel as if she had pushed an issue she shouldn't have pushed. Bellas lips went back to Jakes neck as she thought. Sadness filled her thoughts and voice when she later spoke.
I wish for things I can't have Jake. Something out of my reach and reasoning. I want more tonights but more in what tonight that I was hoping for. There it was again, what she wanted and knew she might sound pushy. One wish.. never to lose my best friend in the entire world and my love for you Jake.
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Post by Jacob Black on Mar 13, 2011 17:20:45 GMT 10
Feeling her hand grasp the side of his waist, he smiled and covered her hand with his, twining their fingers together tightly as he listened carefully to her. He wondered what was out of her reach and what she wished for that she couldn't have, but he wasn't going to push the issue. He knew if she wanted to tell him, she would have. He turned onto his side after hearing her one wish. He looked her in the eyes, wanting to make it clear to her. "You can have what you want from me Bella. You know that I would tell you if I didn't agree. You will always have me, no matter what. I'm not going anywhere. I promise," he whispered, holding her hand tightly as he spoke. He meant every word of it and he was going to be there for her no matter what. She meant the world to him. If there was just one good thing about Jacob, it was that he stuck to his promises. Nothing was ever going to change how he felt for her, even if it was just been her best friend, he was always going to be here protecting her with everything he had. She had him by her side forever.
He looked her in the eye, wondering if she believed him or not. He hoped she did, because he did mean it. He would risk everything he had to just have her at his side. He looked to the side for a moent, thinking deeply once again. He had so much going on in his head after everything that had been happening lately. It was all starting to get to him. "I want more nights like this too," he murmured, looking back to her. "I need nights like this. Everything is starting to get to me."
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Post by Bella Swan on Mar 13, 2011 17:31:47 GMT 10
It felt so good to Bella to have her fingers laced within his like that. His tight grip around her hand made her feel safe and secure. The time was right, as was the moment, for such actions. Bella listened to his words. She did believe him when he said that he would always be her friend. He was the one that had always been there. From such a young age. Heck, they probably played in the mud as young kids together!
I know I have that. I know I have your friendship.. but sometimes I wonder if me being your friend is the best Jake. I know at times even after all these years, it hurts that I am not yours as it could of been and that I married Edward. You are so strong to deal with that and still want to be my friend. I love and cherish that about you. I feel greedy though for wanting our friendship to always be there because of this. We both care so much for each other.. love one another and yet, we are not together...
Bellas voice shook a bit as she said all that. It was painful and stung to know and face realitiy at times to what was the truth and not just some fantasy in her head of hers.
Bella slipped her hand free of Jakes and shifted. She brought herself to slide in the grass so that she was beside him. With a quick glance up and to him, she laid down in his lap and turns so that she was on her back looking up at him. She then retook his hand and held on to it tightly as it was laid against her stomach.
Hearing that things were getting to him wasn't something that Bella enjoyed hearing. She wasn't sure what all he meant by the statement and would ask. She hoped it wasn't that he meant just her and this situation.
What do you mean everythings... getting to you Jake?
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Post by Jacob Black on Mar 13, 2011 17:52:21 GMT 10
He listened to her carefully as she spoke. He was confused by her words. "Bella, I do want to be more than friends, yes, but if we can't I don't care, as long as I am in your life, that's all that matters to me. I don't have any other friends that even match up to what you mean to me.And your not greedy, so don't even think it for a second. I'm the greedy one," he murmured almost silently, looking away from her again.
He watched as she slipped her hand out of his and moved so that she was lying on her back, looking up to him. His eyes questioned what she was doing when she placed his hand on her stomach. His hand ran softly up and down her stomach slowly, looking down to her blindlessly until she questioned him. "The pack, duties, everything around here basically. I just wish that I could live my own life sometimes, without having to be an Alpha. Its effecting me."
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Post by Bella Swan on Mar 21, 2011 14:57:55 GMT 10
That is all I want too, for us to always be together in friendship if nothing more more...but.. Jacob... Bella couldn't do much more at the moment but look down from his eyes and sigh softly. So much was on her mind. Combine that with the lack of her husband being around and she was an utter mess. She wondered if Jacob knew just how hard it was for her at this moment in time. If he really knew.
She took a hand down to the grass and opened her hand so that fingers were spread out and her palm was facing downwards. The under part of her hand brushed over the damp grass as she thought some more to herself. After a couple of moments, while doing this, she closed her eyes.
When she heard him starting to talk about what was eating away at him she opened her eyes and lifted them to find his. She couldn't imagine for a moment what it was like to be a wolf or be alpha of a pack. She only knew what she had seen, the little she did see. It seemed so tough. She lifted up and kissed his jaw a moment and then spoke some more to him. I will always be here for you to talk to, you know, Jake. If you want to talk about all that stuff, any of it, I'm here for you.
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Post by Jacob Black on Mar 21, 2011 15:11:51 GMT 10
He tilited his head to the side, wondering why she had trailed off suddenly. "But?" he asked, leaning down on her softly and placing a soft lingering kiss just above her belly button while her eyes were closed. He meeting her gaze as her eyes reopened. He wondered what she was thinking about, but he did have a sneaking suspision what she was thinking about, he just couldn't be sure.
He sighed at the feeling of her kissing his jaw before she spoke. His arms wrapped around her, not wanting her to go anywhere."I'm fine, as long as I have you around," he smiled slightly,I'm always here for you too Bella," he murmured, pushing them both back down again to how they had been, but with his arms around her this time. "You can tell me anything," he whispered, holding her gaze carefully.
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Post by Bella Swan on Mar 21, 2011 15:19:51 GMT 10
Bella loved his touches. Whenever she got them it was as if she was human again and in complete bliss. She moaned out in delight as he kept the hold he had on her and leaned back with her in his grasp. She did do some shifting so that she was more or less, leaning fully against him.
She knew that he would wonder what she was going to say and his repeating of the but confirmed it. She took her gaze back to him and gave a soft shrug. It wasn't nothing really. Just me not letting things drop...as usual Jake.
She then offered a smile to his comment about being alright longest he had her. Of course he had her! She wasn't going to leave him! Ever! You got me. Always and forever...with minor changers...the cold thing..fang thing... lack of a beating heart...and oh... at least Im no longer clumsy! Bella couldn't help but laugh at that last one. What a welcomed thing it was not to have to worry so much as she had as a human of always causing some mishap. They still happened from time to time, but nothing nearly remotely as bad.
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Talk soon <3